The Verdict Is In…
Drumroll, please... OK people, I found out I passed my written portion of comps (yay!), but failed my practical portion (boo!).
What's next, you ask? REMEDIATION! I have to remediate with each professor I did poorly with and postpone my next clinical rotation until the fall. I admit I was REALLY bummed about this. I think I seriously went through all the stages of grief. I started to question myself and my abilities. I was so embarrassed, and I feared what my professors thought of me as a student.
Last Friday during Grand Rounds (when all the AuD students and staff meet once a week to talk and listen to speakers), our 4th-years came to speak to us about their experiences. Afterwards, I pulled one of them aside. I knew this person quite well, so I felt comfortable telling her what happened to me at comps. She reassured me that I wasn't going to be looked at as a failure. In fact, she said it would make me a better clinician for having the extra time to practice and prepare.
I must say, it was as if a ton of bricks had been lifted off my chest. Man, did I feel better. So on to begin my next journey--REMEDIATION! And as the spring quarter comes to a highly anticipated close, the summer quarter will soon begin.
As I reflect on my 2nd year as an AuD student, I think it has been, by far, the most traumatic year of school I've ever had. I'm sure I'm going to need therapy and a good personal trainer when this is all over. Oh yes, and did I forget to mention I gained 15 pounds during my comps seclusion? (Talk about insult to injury.)
But that's OK, because 3rd year is so close, I can taste it. And when it does get here, hopefully I can enter it with a more peaceful state of mind... and new abs of steel!