The Search for Happiness
It's hard to convey the emotions of a new grad- there are so many. On this wild rollercoaster of nearly six months I have been through peaks and valleys of all sorts. Back flips, cork screws, and wicked drops have pushed me along the track as I have been nervous, stressed, and even scared at times of the situations that laid before me. As with all thrill rides, fear is part of the experience, and in the case of nursing, withstanding each crazy moment makes you that much more fit for the next.
Whether success or failure, each day, each patient, each situation is compounded onto another as a tale of learning through adversity and being able to hold your head high knowing that you gave your best effort. As human beings we are not perfect. Not patient, nor nurse, nor doctor, or any other individual can attain this level.
I recently had the opportunity to work with a patient who was placed on comfort care. Family members rallied around one another, inside a small hospital room, and spoke not of death and darkness, but of memories, and light. They laughed and smiled, and cried, but the tears felt different. The small drops that trickled down their tired eyes were a confirmation of life and death and the understanding between it all. At that moment a family had been brought together, regardless of the circumstances.
At this point in my career I have so many thoughts about nursing. Some days I think its great and others I think drastically different. The stress is always there if you care, and I can definitely say that I do care. One thing I know for sure is that I want people to be happy, everyone deserves to feel that way more than just one time in their life. Some people find happiness in the most weird and unassuming places, but it's out there. I hope I can continue to see others find their happiness, and do my best to be a facilitator in the process.