It's Getting Real Now
Last Saturday, I had my last day of clinical. Yesterday, I
handed in my capstone project. In three weeks, I’ll take my last final.
And then I’m done.
It’s amazing how quickly time goes. It’s been two years and
three months since I started the nursing program at La Salle and almost four
years since I started going back to school to pursue a career in nursing.
A lot has happened in that time. I got married in August of
2010. I bought a house in July of 2012. And, by the time I sit for the boards,
I’ll have a newborn daughter.
Through all of that, I somehow managed to transition from
being a guy who knew as little as a grown adult could know about the human body
without hurting himself into a nursing school graduate.
Overall, I’d say it’s been a fruitful and rewarding experience.
During most of my time in school, I’ve often felt quite lost, but I was assured
that, at some point, it would all come together. I still think that day – the day
where it all comes together – is somewhere in my future. But I know I’m closing
in on it. People in the know tell me that day comes once you’re actually in a
job and doing it every day.
I can’t lie – I’m nervous. Nervous about the boards. Nervous
about finding a job. Nervous about being a nurse. But I think being nervous can
be a good thing for me. If I’m nervous, I can’t coast. If I can’t coast, I’ll
have to work for it, and that means I’ll have to continue to grow.
Last year around this time, I was about halfway through
school, and I thought to myself “Geez, I know nothing. I’m not even close to
ready to be a nurse.” But, I thought, “Well, I certainly know a great deal more
than when I started, and if I have a similar jump in knowledge by the time I’m
done, I’ll feel pretty comfortable with where I’m at.”’
Well, that jump in knowledge happened, and the results have
started to show. Certain things have gone beyond knowledge and become
instinctive. I’ve exceed the national average on my last few Hesi exams. I’m
even able to answer medical questions in a somewhat intelligent way when my
family and friends ask them.
That being said, I’m still nervous. But I’m also encouraged.
And encouragement is probably an even greater motivator than nervousness.
2014 Is going to be a big year. The year I become a father.
The year I become a nurse.
I’m nervous for it. I’m excited for it. I’m ready for it.