Living for Today
As I stare out over the mountains here on my sister's farm, I cannot help but marvel at life happening all around me. I am always so rushed, so busy, that I literally never stop "to smell the roses." And I wonder how many of us actually do this in the first place. My life is in constant overdrive not only at work but also in my personal life.
As I sit here, slowly drinking my coffee, listening to the bees in the bottlebrush tree and watching the birds build their nests, I cannot relax completely. This peace and quiet is so alluring, my body needs to relax so desperately, but my mind is already racing ahead at everything I have to do once I get home from my holiday.
I am already compounded, managing every aspect of my life, that I haven't even lived yet.
How many of us do this? We work towards the all elusive "ONE DAY" when we will be able to not work, not rush, just breathe, and have fun. That day where we will have no more financial worries or obligations, where the kids are grown up and living their own lives, where we have our own chef, maid, and spa therapist to pamper us. What a utopic dream that is.
Now that it is spring here in Cape Town, I wonder at all the new life happening all around me—the bright colors, the new noises, people cleaning house and reorganizing their lives and their planning. Already we are gearing up for Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and New Year's... but why?
Those days are still coming; they aren't here yet. We are missing out on life happening right now. Missing out on the sunshine, our kids growing up, our parents growing older. Missing out on inventions taking place, music being made, love being found and lost... a smile from a stranger, a casual hello from a friend, a love-at-first-sight look between two people, a baby being born, and an old friend saying goodbye for the last time.
Have you ever had one day where you literally have no cell phone to continuously look in on Facebook, e-mails, Instagram, or Twitter in a last-ditch attempt to see if someone acknowledged your existence? A day where you just stopped, took a deep breath, walked barefoot on the cool grass, laid down on the beach, and soaked up the sun? A day where you enjoyed nature, the heat, the cold, the wind... not overthinking, not planning or worrying? I doubt it as we are stuck in this ever-expanding rat race lifestyle, always chasing the next big thing, our next paycheck, bills, and having to survive.
I fully plan to have one tech-free day from now on, where I will live fully, and train my brain to just "chill" for a day—a day where I won't die if I'm not able to control everything. I can exist without my phone, laptop, and TV.
Let's see if you can do this too.