Losing Sight of the Bigger Picture
It's official -- we're in "that semester." The one we've heard about since entering the program, and despite having some forewarning that it would be terrible, I don't think any of us realized how bad it was going to get. I know it's nothing new. Anyone who has ever been in PT school can relate to what we're dealing with right now. With 21 credits that include neuroscience and musculoskeletal, it's nearly impossible to keep up with the overwhelming amount of work. The worst part is that, as luck would have it, all of our exam schedules seem to be synchronized. I'll be the first to admit that I'm not very good at studying for more than one big exam at a time, which is really not helpful this semester.
The most disheartening thing is that in the midst of all the stress and confusion, I feel like I'm losing sight of the bigger picture. I find myself questioning why I even came to PT school. No matter what anyone tells you, it's hard to see past all of the late nights, unexpectedly difficult tests and phone calls from friends wondering where you've been. I resent that just two months ago, I was so certain that I was in the right place, and also was certain that I would be successful. Lately, I've started to question all of that.
I think one of the other problems is that I have always felt confident in my academic abilities. Even when challenging concepts have been presented in the past, I have always managed to find a way to learn and understand the information. Now, faced with neuro, I feel like I could finally be defeated.