I have an infusion of a lot of "new" things in my life lately. New clothes and books from Christmas that are still unused. New challenges at work. New techs to train. New AASM scoring rule. New equipment to buy. New projects to coordinate (because my boss likes to do that). New insurance plan and deductible. New supply chain. UGH!! GIVE ME A BREAK!! Does anyone else know how I feel?
I remember when "new" had a certain, crisp smell to it and when "new" was shiny and exciting. But this "new" has a sort of staleness to it. A certain been-there-done-that aura about it. I also remember when I tried to meet every challenge with a new "go get'em girl" kind of energy. Lately that energy is missing and I feel more like I am stuck in traffic with no exit lanes. After a while the newness of "new" wares off and the work required in learning how to deal with the "new" begins to take its toll. It's hard to face every day with a new attitude, but I try. I try to let go of the icky stuff and keep what's good and needed and move on. Don't we all? But sometimes I get overwhelmed. Sometimes it hurts my head! It seems like right now I am in a tornado of "new" and I am afraid something may spin out on to me if I am not careful.
For instance, the AASM os going back to the 3% percent rule. How are we adjusting our practice to accommodate the payers who insist on 4% desats? And what about new sleep equipment that is written on old software? New doesn't necessarily mean better, buyer beware...
I guess sometimes we just have to accept that it's all in a day's work and that most of the time, things will work out. I mean really is there anything new under the sun? It sort of is same story, next line. I guess what makes it difficult is that not all knowledge gained in the previous story line applies and it tests our ability to adapt and change. And it's that living, breathing, changing quality of life that really is new in some fashion every day.
It's that "new" that keeps us moving when we just want to stop. Like me, now. After having shared my list of new things with you, I can now move on, to something else new.