I want to tell you, not to give up hope.
I just started as an lvn after 8 months of having my license. I never thought I would end up in a sniff, because my heart belongs to the er.
But here I am.
I am working on my RN, just like you. Only because i am afraid that when I tell someone they are wrong. I might lose my job because theyhave a step up on me.
I will be in the air one day as a flight nurse, not sitting behind a desk telling people what to do. But the fact is that even though I am straight out of nursing school, I have seen so many errors at work n the past three days, that I don't even know if I should stay. Even though I am told by my fellow classmates that it's normal... I trust them.
I have been charting weekly reports on patients I havent even known for two days! How in the hell do you do that? But I have. Three times!
We are Supposed to know what to expect when we give a medication as a new nurse, But how?
Trial and error?! Lets just hope that they are a dnr and we don't end up beating ourselfs up for the rest of our lives.
All I can say is...... ask..... if they are shitty nurses.... ask the RN. You are still new, nursing is not like nursing school..... and if you have a passion you will be a great nurse.... if you didn't care you wouldn't be asking for help on this web site.... We are supposed to know what is the right medication dose and what is not, but maybe that comes with time? everyone is different, so maybe that comes with mind reading.? Who knows.....
If you gave the right dose, you are not responsible for the Pt's reaction, you are responsible for charting and doing everything possible to keep your pt. alive. PERIOD. Do what you can. Be the best possible nurse you can be.
You are only human.. If you expect more from yourself, give more of yourself... Read more, look into what you are doing; I found you because I don't know how to chart properly... I know how to love someone, anyone. as a matter of fact... But, am I fully doing my job by knowing how to care? Absolutly Not. I need to go the extra mile and do the research...
I don't know a lot of things, but I do know this... You are a WONDERFUL NURSE and so am I.